I committed to my goal buddy that I would do a run-through of my 2/1 coaching lesson for my upcoming Soul Proprietor Community by tomorrow morning at 9am when we check in with each other.
Since making that commitment yesterday, I have filed my tax returns, ordered theatre tickets, arranged a lunch date for my son’s birthday, confirmed breakfast plans with my daughter and granddaughter, blogged about my process, responded to emails and spent a few minutes on Facebook.
In actual preparation for that goal, I did take my notes down off the wall and arranged them onto sheets of paper in the order that I want to refer to them. That required a nap.
I know that I will have rehearsed once before our early call tomorrow, but I won’t pretend that it’s my go-to activity, even though it is the most important work I’m developing. I need a forcing mechanism–that call with my goal partner–to give me an artificial deadline. This way I’ll be 100% ready when I go live in two weeks.
I’m not worried about it. Just observing my behavior. One of the points I intend to make during that call is what I’ve heard described as the highest form of spiritual development (i.e. what I strive for every day): non-judgmental awareness.
“Ah, look at that, Jane. You’re putting other things in front of this activity that will give you great peace of mind once you’ve worked on it.”
I’m heading off to a meeting now knowing full well that when I get back, I will do my first run-through, with my recording device on, so I can experience having talked this through. It will most definitely get easier after that, and I will continue to commit to rehearsing again and again.
What’s different about my procrastination process at this point in my career is that I can be a casual observer to it and not a harsh critic of it. I wish you that peace of mind in your own procrastination behaviors.
Hi Jane, Good to read, as I procrastinate and feel overwhelmed this a.m. Have lost my cell phone which has all my program and business contacts on it…. I will know later if it’s at a store in CT. Meanwhile, I can do my program ‘calls’ via email, finish an overdue little job for a client, do my numbers from yesterday, and leave for NJ w/friend to find a ‘recycled kitchen’ for my demolished space. Have my home be a construction site while I rent has been disconcerting and disorienting, and for today, I am tired of ‘soldiering on’ as if nothing has happened! We have been out of our house since 10/29, and I am doing morning pages again, and more aware of my behaviors in a less judgmental way. Thanks for the message! 🙂 Kristin HL