Have you missed me? It’s been over a month since I’ve posted on my blog, and here’s why. I was down for the count. Whatever has been going around virally this winter found a friendly host in my chest, burrowed in and lingered for four weeks.
For the first time in my career, I had to cancel major events including my once-a-month, all-day Mastermind Intensive as well as my bi-weekly Virtual Mastermind (I couldn’t even sit upright at my computer in front of a camera), plus all of my regular clients. Not pretty.
The good news was that the women I work with are generous, compassionate and understanding. We’ll make up any missed sessions, but I did question my value on earth when not delivering. It’s a scary place to be. I had to use all of my positive self-talk skills to get me through my month of non-productivity.
By the time I crawled out of bed and back onto my computer, it too had caught its own virus and conked out. I could open the desktop, but was unable to move beyond that. It was as sick as I was.
Both operating systems, mine and my PC’s, were at ground zero, needed re-booting and new wiring. Has anything similar ever happened to you?
I reached out to a few trusted members of my network for advice, thoughts and suggestions:
- Have you ever been this sick for this long?
- What did you have and what did you do for it?
- How did you care for yourself and your clients during that time?
I got a lot of feedback and came up with some telling responses, particularly this one: “What were you doing when you first got sick?” one holistically-minded colleague asked.
Hmmmm. I was at JFK about to fly to Mexico for the San Miguel Writers Conference when I started sneezing, sniffling and coughing. Out of the blue, I thought.
At the event I would be learning as much about publishing, promotion, etc. as I could as well as pitching my memoir to an agent. I did attend several talks armed with Kleenex and Ricola lozenges. I heard the fabulous Mary Carr, the legendary Judy Collins (who has a book coming out this spring) and a panel of literary agents who were forthcoming, informative and encouraging. It was only after my 5pm pitch on Friday that I went back to my AirBnB and collapsed in a heap.
I believe in Louise Hay’s body of work which states that where in our physical selves our symptoms show up is a result of an underlying belief:
- Foot issues indicate a fear of stepping/moving into the future.
- Low back pain reflects a lack of support.
- Sore throat demonstrates an inability to speak your truth.
- Coughing, my most prominent symptom, ties to: a desire to bark at the world, “Listen to me!”
Ding, ding, ding! That correlation hit home.
Knowing what might lie behind an illness, then healing and accepting the condition are different levels of awareness and recovery. I will speak to professionals in a variety of disciplines – homeopathy, psychology and Western practice.
For now, I’m so happy to be well, functioning and in the energy of life. And in touch with YOU!